Caught up in a dream of mine--big surprise
Love life, live a long time
I want to try
If it weren't for the landmines exploding in the back of my head
I can't fight.
I'm never right.
After all, maybe he's right: I'm off inside
Cruel words of a stranger who's always in the back of my head
He doesn't shout, he gently speaks
Persuasion comes so cheap when he's been wearing me down so long
I wanna scream, "Are you finished yet?"
Feel so discarded, I'll go and hide
Can't tell if it's real or my worried mind
Past enemies of mine are trolling in the back of my head
Squirming in the moonlight, another night
Another year in the grip of my darker side
Stop fidgeting long enough to see it's not so bad, and I'm dead
I wanna breathe the air in peace, be present, be now, not dreaming
Taking it in, not venting
I wanna scream, "I ain't finished yet"
Before I self-destruct, the pieces showering in phosphorescence
Glowing in rememberance of the things I took for granted
All pretenses burning up in outer atmosphere, dazzling in shameful glances
Before I'm gone, remind me I'm not dead... just dying
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